Recapture and treasuring every moment

with my dear Calyce.  I feel that my love for her is growing stronger by the day.. maybe even more so than Cepheus compared to when Cepheus was first born.  When Cepheus was born, i am still a newbie mommy, alot of things i did, was out of what other people told me, that i must do this and that, and alot of times is more of following instructions, like how to burp, how to change etc.. and as i am so anxious and excited for the first time, alot of things are done out of 'because i have and must do' sometimes maybe without appreciating the meaning and rationale behind it.  With Calyce, it is entirely different feeling, i knew how to handle her well enough and i did it out with more thoughts and appreciation.  I appreciate the time to feed her, sing to her, even to burp her as i carry her over my shoulders (she simply loves it, she will stop crying once i carry her over my shoulder for burping).  I manage to recapture some of the moments that i have with Cepheus previously when i am doing the same things with Calyce now.  I know that i appreciate and treasure these moments with Calyce even more so now as i know i may not have a third time to do it (since we decided to stop at 2 or unless they wanted me to take care of my grandchildren in the future haha.).  Very soon, like Cepheus, Calyce will grow up, learn to flip, seat, crawl, walk and run, and they will want independence and walk or run around more than they need us to carry them as opposed to a baby state now.  So now is the only time that we can get closer to them than any other times in life.  I love to carry Calyce in my arms more than anything.  Although in the initial phase, i tend to get frustrated easily with her as well as she keep crying in the middle of the night and waking up 2-3 times per night, but now as she past her first month, her waking times are more predictable and more manageable, and perhaps i have somewhat grown used to it also.  And maybe because i feel that Cepheus is having too much attention from everyone else that i feel that i must dote on Calyce more too.  Very soon, even if i want to hold her in my arms like i do now, she may not want it anymore, so we should always appreciate every step and phase of the time spent with our kids right now.