Calyce is on sleep strike

Calyce seems to be on a sleep strike again today.. she can sleep the whole of yesterday but not today.  One day she can sleep for the whole day but the second day she can stay awake the entire day.  Sometimes she can stay quietly in the playpen for awhile but today, she just refuse and insist on carrying her all the way.. Mommy is terribly tired, tired because i cannot sleep well when she is not sleeping, and tired because mommy is carrying her the entire day.. arms and legs are aching together..finally she seems to have fallen asleep now.. and mommy took a few minutes off to write this blog.. i couldnt even pump milk on time and do other things when she is not sleeping, little wonder that my milk supply seems to be diminishing and Calyce seems too comfort to be latched on, she will only always empty one breast and then go back to sleep and refuse to empty the other one.  There is little stimulation to my milk supply as i simply do not have the time to pump due to tiredness and busy entertaining Cepheus from the time he is home.  I need to spend quality time with the kids and not spend my time shutting behind doors trying to pump those pathetic drops out of my breasts!  However, i am very satisfied that Calyce is at least now 50-75% on pure breastmilk.  I will persevere as long as i can to give her as much breastfeeding as possible, even if it means not full breastfeeding (with supplements) and if possible, stretch it to 2 months or even 3 months if permits (my initial plan is 1 month but depending on when the supply will be ending)..

Cepheus attitude towards me and Calyce is getting better by the day, today, he did not throw any tantrum when Daddy and granny sayang meimei and even came forward to kiss me and Calyce good night.  I have spent alot of effort on Cepheus, when he is home, i try not to show too much attention to Calyce, and will show him 100% of my attention (unless Calyce starts crying), i will try to rope in my MIL to help to look after Calyce as much as possible while i play and took care of Cepheus while he is home like feeding him, read him books and playing with him, so that he doesnt feel neglected.  And i can see that my efforts are not wasted as his attitude towards me and Calyce are better now, which is very encouraging to see.  I hope that things will just get better and better especially to see them grow up together.. there will be more conflicts to come and tantrums to throw for sure..