I am very upset and hurt tonight

Cepheus threw tantrum again just now and is lying down crying and banging his feet on the floor.  I tried to carry him and sayang him and instead of running to mommy, he pushed me away and tried to beat me with his hands.  He is always doing this to me whenever he throws tantrums.  Whenever he is upset he will keep pushing me away and whenever he is happy or wants something then he comes to me.  He will not reciprocate my good intentions to sayang and pacify him when he throw tantrums or when he is crying.  And is always so aggressive towards me when he does that as if i am the one who made him angry (although it could be his granny or even his daddy who made him upset in the first place).  I am always being taken for granted or a punching bag.  Maybe i am too nice to him already that he thought that i am good to 'bully' in the family.  He doesnt know that his actions is actually hurting his mommy very much.  I don't understand why he wants to do that or why i am always the one to kena.  Since he doesnt want me to pacify him whenever he throws tantrums or cries, i have decided that in order not to upset him further or make myself an object of his venting machine, i am not going to pacify him anymore again.  He can always go to his Daddy or even his Granny for comfort.  I will just be there for him when he feels like it or need it.  Sometimes i just feel that it is not worth so much of my love when he doesnt reciprocate it as i always end up getting hurt in the end.  I hope Calyce will not be like him and will be more loving towards mommy in future.