Its Cepheus first day

in school today.. and Mommy felt so heartache, i felt like crying at some point in time but i tolerated.

Cepheus was very happy in the morning when he first saw so many children in the centre, he tried to mingle with them, but as time gets longer, he started to get bored, and near to lunch time, he started to cry for sleep.. his routine is completed screwed, as his morning nap time now is the centre's lunch time.  But i still managed to feed him and made him finish his meal before we send him to bathe.. before the teacher could do anything, he was already crying like mad.  We quickly took him home thereafter.. he slept for a good 4 hours today in the afternoon at home..

As i have so many concerns and worries, we started with half day today but the principal actually advises me to put him to full day starting tomorrow, as the more we drag, the less good it does for him as it will take him longer time to adapt.  "Let the teacher manage him.. if we cannot manage him, we will call you, no worries.." its easier said than done.. how could we leave him alone and not worry??  I felt so guilty leaving Cepheus in the centre alone.. although he looks happy today but it was because everything is so new to him.. it hurts me to think that he actually does not know that papa and mama is going to leave him there by himself tomorrow.. how cruel can we be...