Cepheus 2nd day in school

Sent Cepheus to the centre at 830am today.. at the entrance, he was already aware and refuse to let the teacher touch him (they need to check for hand foot mouth symptoms).. after which when he finally went in with a teacher, he started to cry when he saw that we were not behind him.. we sneaked away for breakfast when we saw that a teacher was consoling and carrying him in her arms.

After breakfast, Dear went ahead to go home whilst me and my MIL went back to take a look, they are having waterplay today, and Cepheus upon seeing me nearby again cries for me but the teacher grab him away to the pool... we hid behind a wall near the pool to monitor the situation.  The teachers were very attentive to him and carried him all the way while they were changing at the pool as Cepheus couldnt stop crying.. i felt so guilty at that moment for making him cry.. as he wasnt crying until he saw me.. Cepheus was crying at the pool until he gets into the water and the teacher managed to make him enjoy the waterplay.  He keep grabbing the teacher's hands and walk up and down the pool.. all the kids seems to enjoy themselves very much.

Anyway this time i am adamant not to let Cepheus see me again when he gets out of the pool.. from the time out of the pool, Cepheus started crying again all the way back into the centre for bathing.. i dare not go into the centre for fear that he will see me.. one parent told me that my son was crying so madly from the pool to the bathroom and it was really bad.. i sat at the sofa inside the centre away from the bathroom when my MIL went home... and i got a shock when Cepheus suddenly ran out from the bathroom and to the gate where the sofa is and saw me! immediately he cried for me again and keep shouting 'mama mama mama...' i dare not carry him or go near him for fear that it may cause him to cry even more so i told him Daddy and Mommy going home now and waved bye bye to him..i felt so guilty at that point in time that i did not even carry him to console him for awhile..

i hid outside the centre and peeped through the glass door and keep seeing Cepheus following behind the teacher shouting papa papa papa and crying away.. it makes my heart ache so much that my tears just dropped endlessly.  The centre staff saw me and ask me to go home and come back later as it makes things worse for both of us.. but i am determined to stay until he finishes his lunch..

I did not manage to see Cepheus after that as i couldnt see him anymore from the corner where i was standing.. i could hear another girl shouting for mama mama mama.. and it just makes my heart melt.. poor kids.. are we as parents so cruel or what?? anyway, the teacher saw me behind the door and came out to greet me again.  She told me that if i were to let my son see me again then i should take him home, else it makes matters worse as letting him see me is as good as letting him have the false impression that i am bringing him home.. and it will make him cry even more when i do otherwise.. i realised my mistake and told the teacher that i am going home now and i will come at 5pm.. and this time.. i really go home..

Dear and myself went to toysrus again to shop for xmas pressies for the kids for April's xmas party.  And i bought a small kitchenette for Cepheus he already have tons of toys at home but this is one that i promised him i would get him and so i did.. just that i did not get the big one but jsut a mini one due to space constraints of our home as i just bought a table and chair set for him last night... there is really no more place for a decent large kitchenette for now..

We went back at 5pm to pick Cepheus up.  And the moment he saw me, he started to cry again and then keep saying 'bye bye' to the teacher and flying kisses everywhere.. he couldnt wait to get out of that place.. i hugged him so hard and kissed him so hard before he would stop crying.. The teacher said that he performed quite well today as he did not cry throughout the entire day unlike other kids does.  She even showed me pictures and a video of Cepheus playing with the kids and posing to the camera.  She said that Cepheus only cry when he is reminded of us.. like when the teacher said 'wash hands' (cos we always bring him to wash hand at home) or when he pass by the main gate and will start to point to the gate and shout for papa and mama.. other than that.. once he is distracted, he actually is quite well behaved and can mingle well with the other kids.. he finishes his lunch (whilst crying), eats papaya, drinks his milk, took a 2 hour nap, eat his snack (pizza bread) and drinks water.. one thing that i forgot to ask is how he behave during shower though as he is used to using tub at home.. i will bear in mind on monday to ask that..

Cepheus came home with swollen eyes and we were all so 'xim tia' but we know that it is inevitable so..all we could do is to keep him company shower him with lotsa love and keep sayang him at home, let him do whatever he wanted to today to keep him happy.. he was unhappy at first but was later very happy playing with daddy and mommy as well as watching his favourite Elmo video.. and he is now sleeping soundly.. i just hope that he doesnt get nightmares tonight..