Woke up with a really bad sore throat

sucking onto some throat drops now, so might as well do something in the meantime.. blog.. hahaha

counting down to 6 weeks to Calyce birth.. excited as well as stress and worried... stress over how i can cope with housework and juggling between breast feeding and the two kids in the coming months.. and most importantly, how Cepheus will feel when Calyce is out.  I do not want him to feel neglected or threatened with Calyce's birth.  And i want him to learn how to love his sister.. however, i somehow feel that he is just too young to understand all this.  He is really an attention seeker these days, and if he doesnt get what he wanted, he will just lie down on the floor and cry..(wonder where he get this pattern from anyway..) and made us give in to him.  He still demands to be carried by me despite me telling him that i couldnt as my tummy is getting really big and painful.. but he just simply doesnt care.. i am just worried that after my c-sec operation, i may not be able to carry him for some time, and he may feel neglected or feel that i do not love him anymore and only wants meimei .. this may then cause him to feel unhappy and a drift between him and his sister.. 

i really hope i am thinking too much like what my friends are saying and that everything will just turn out to be fine.. i don't want to feel guilty towards Cepheus by having a little sister for him.. as in the first place, i have decided to have another child because of him in consideration as well, as i do not want him to grow up being a loner without siblings..hope he understands Mommy..