Cepheus on tubing today

i believe any mom who sees their babies or children on drip or tubing must be a big heartache for them.  Seeing my baby in this condition sends tears down my eyes uncontrollably.  The PD and the Surgeon said that his condition worsen this morning when he start to experience heavy respiratory problem.  They decided to tube him as a preventive measure as he cannot breath successfully on his own anymore.  Even feeding is via tube through his nose.. He is attached to all kinds of machines on either side of his bed which keeps beeping all the way because he keeps struggling.  Doc say he is still in good condition that he is able to struggle as he can feel discomfort and upsets easily.. however they have to sedate him so that he wont put up too much struggle which may hurt himself.. I brought him a bottle of my breast milk today for feeding.. was very happy at first that i am able to feed him myself with my milk, however, i can only see the milk being drain down his nose via the tube.. baby do you know the milk you have today is from mama?  The nurse have a tough time calming him down after the milk session and they have to perform suction from his mouth tube to remove the secretion.. i can see how upset he is and how uncomfortable he is with all those things attached to him.. cry as he might, there are no sounds coming out from him.. he was covered in sweat with all the struggle and i have to help to calm him down by patting him and holding onto his little toes.. strange enough, he seems to sense that i am near him, and seconds after i touched him, he stopped struggling, the nurse smiled and said that finally the magic touch from mommy works...

We spoke to a surgeon from the surgical team, who said that they have to pull up his surgery to monday instead of tuesday, first thing tomorrow morning at 830am, i told him that we will be there at 730am.  He informed us of all the kinds of possible risks involved in such surgery and that sends shivers down my spine.. i know all kinds of surgery no matter how minor contains a risk.. but i really pray and hope that my Cepheus will be blessed and protected with all mighty and please all gods and beliefs please protect my son from any harm and that his surgery tomorrow will be smooth and successful.  Please keep my Little Cepheus safe and healthy..