Sad day

today's a sad day for me.. i lost my promotion, and didnt have any lottery luck.. how bad can it gets..

why do we get upset over lose of money opportunity?  YK mentioned today that in TW there exist a couple who strike a 4 mil lottery, and took a month to decide if they should collect the money.. why are there people who gets upset over not striking lottery whereas there are actually people who have to struggle and think for so long to collect their prize money despite having won it?  The reason why they did not collect the prize money earlier was because they have heard too much sad stories over the plight of people who won lottery, surrounded by hypocrites, murdered for money, cheated and dying young for striking rich suddenly..  RS mentioned that if the return is a sad ending for him then he rather do without striking the lottery and slog his life away in peace and harmony with his little family happily for the rest of his life.. there are those who are so easily contented and those who are continuously struggling to fight hard to earn more.  Why do i love money so much?  because of circumstances, i dread of being poor.. i am scared of being poor, the thought of being poor, and no money to pay for bills, for food, constantly being hounded by money lenders and being sick but with no money for medical bills worries me, especially when i am constantly surrounded by money lovers, who treats money above anything else.. i dread of being poor and looked down by people, i dread of being poor and penniless and knowing that there is nobody i can turn to if anything were to happen to me or my child.. I dread to think that i have nothing or legacy to leave to my child, i dread to imagine that he will be left with poverty when i am gone.. and that was exactly the reason why i did not encourage to have a kid for the longest time.. i dread my life of being constantly poor... what more can i dread than being poor?  well still BEING POOR!!!