Insomnia

kicks in again.. for the past week, i have just only stopped work for a week but i havent have had any good sleep.. no matter which side i lay on, or how i position myself, i just felt warm and uncomfortable and lethargic, and most of the time, i woke up covered in sweat and discomfort or pain.. I hate this kind of feeling, i hate not able to get to sleep. I hate the aches and pains that is conquering me now and then. I hate that no matter how i seat, its always uncomfortable, I hate that when i walk too much my leg hurts, i hate that i no longer like my favourite food and my temper getting shorter, and i most hate those stretch marks on me..

I met up with Jamie and Aiyan last night for dinner, i can't understand why they are so happy over pregnancy, they are so amazed over the kicks and turns that their baby is having inside them before they were born, but i am only feeling pain and discomfort, yeah its a miracle that you can see your tummy move and someone kicking you from within but it have become a burden for me that its causing me so much discomfort esp causing my insomnia..  They were still discussing when to have a second baby, OMG, and here i am cant wait to have my bb out of my stomach!  i really have to consider again if i am going to have a second child seriously in future, this nine months have not been a breeze for me considering the stress that we are having due to its condition and the physical changes that i have to go through..