Arrived at 730am

at the neonatal ward today, was informed that the nurses are taking his pressure stats, blood etc ready for the operation at 830am.. however, come 845am and nobody came to take over my son.. finally the pediatrician informed that Cepheus surgery will be postponed to the afternoon.. they are not sure why is it so as it was a last minute decision made at the OT.. ferris and myself went back home to rest while i took the opportunity to express more milk.. my milking time have gone hay wire and i couldnt stick to the 3 hourly timetable as i am always on the move from hospital to home and to hospital everyday.. i was quite worried that my supply will diminish as i did not do it at a timely interval so i decided to take the metroclopramide pills prescribed by the doctor (which aids lactation) ignoring the possible side effects it may bring (depression for the mother).

We arrived in the hospital at 1pm again and was again informed by the surgeon this time that Cepheus surgery will have to be postponed to tomorrow again at 830am.. i was quite unhappy at first.. as we were supposed to be first in queue today.. but after hearing his explanation that they did not manage to op on Cepheus because another baby girl got worse in her condition with cancer.. my heart softens and goes to the girl.. poor baby.. so small already have cancer and her op will lasts from morning till the night.. the surgeon informed that they have wanted to op on Cepheus first but due to the criticality of the situation, they decided to op on the girl first and quite unexpectedly the girl's condition is not as positive as they have thought and that the surgery will last into the night although they have estimated a 4 to 8 hours op initially.  He explained that he will prioritise Cepheus first thing tomorrow morning.. I hope that there are no more unexpected twist to Cepheus' operation tomorrow.. i just get worried as the day goes by if this drags on.

Again Cepheus do not seem too comfy today and keep struggling and crying (albeit without noise with the tubing still in him), as he struggles he generate more secretion from his throat.. which turns yellowish.. the nurses and docs do not know why its yellowish and they sent it to the lab for testing.. god bless that there is nothing wrong with him, doc did mention that there is no liquid found in his lungs after the x-ray and its not likely that he have an infection or leakage of cyst.. anyway.. after tomorrow, i hope everything will be fine.. 

I do hope that the little girl with cancer today turns out fine too, my heart goes to her parents and her.. little people like them do not deserve to suffer like this..