2.984kg

is my son's weight today.. at 36w5days.. 2 more weeks and he'll be out to face the world.. i am so damn excited..3kg at this stage i am quite satisfied already.. if only i could carry him to full term, i am sure i can feed him up to at least 3.3 to 3.5kg with another month to go.. i really would like to have a bigger bb.. but the doc say my bb weight is considered normal liao and normally girls of my size so small size bb will be smaller.. so i think i am considered quite good.. haha.. but i am gg to eat more these last two weeks so that bb can grow to his full potential..his feet is already now up to my breast, sometimes i wonder if i am bigger size, or have a longer torso, it will be more comfortable for him and he will have more room to grow.. but my stomach is too small already and there is a limit to how much it can expand and now i already felt like i am ready to burst any moment..  i have not been having enough sleep these days and grew exceptionally tired.. by 9 pm plus the sleep bugs will kick in .. but i still insist on watching my tv series before i go to bed.. and i woke up more than usual recently in the middle of the night too.. i can see dark circles under my eyes and my skin is getting duller too.. must do more DIY facial during these last two weeks plus the confinement period as well haha..

very excited and nervous.. plus abit lost too.. anyway dear dear also went to SGH to see specialist on his nose today.. he worries too much liao.. doc simply say its only sensitive nose.. so good la.. nothing to worry about..

things to do next week

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1. buy pillow

2. buy cot mattress

3. bathe brownie

4. go guan im temple

5. buy pyjamas

6. arrange the kitchen (make space for bb stuff)

7. bring out the steriliser, milk bottles, breast pump, slow cooker, kettle, 

8. remind dear to change out the sofa cover for dry cleaning

9. remind dear to arrange a time to fix the bb cot when i in hospital

10. arrange the hospital bag and brief dear dear where are the bb stuff in case doc allows bb to be taken home with me

hmmmm what else have i left out??

For the past week, i have been counting down to my maternity leave next week however as days goes by i cant help worry and stress over work.. esp now with the news that Emmy is going to leave us and i have to find a replacement real soon.. more interviews on thur and fri liao.. no more time to lose..my replacement just came in on monday but he is too new for me to handover existing tasks to him so i still have delegate out the existing tasks to emmy and jimmy.. and the bad news is the contract that we are offering him is 3 months basis.. no one can tell if he will be extended beyond the 3 months now as still subject to approval.. in the back of my mind i am telling myself.. wats the use of a 3 months replacement which may not help much at all..i really hope my boss will fight for him to stay for 6 months at least until my return to the office.. by august.. my entire team may be new.. new interns, new replacement for emmy and new IT developer .. wow.. and i think i am gg to suffer from amnesia after 4 months away from work.. really stress upon foreseeing all these.. should i really take 4 months???